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It took me 2 years to make a video after a whole year of dealing with shit that held me back I was so happy to be back on my job. I was finally doing what I was supposed to do. I wasn't focused on what I didn't have, I didn't compare myself to YouTubers with millions of subscribers and got overwhelmed with my own ambition. I put my first video out and a wave of relief came over me. I finally caught momentum and put up my second video (insert muscle and sunglasses emojis here) and two minutes after I uploaded the first comment I received was one word "nigger".

At first I thought he's just a hater move on. Then I got really angry and wondered why someone would click on a video of someone from a race they clearly don't like and give my video a thumbs down and call me a nigger. I try to do my best to stay away from race arguments because I feel that all races are equal and the arguments about race and racism can be so draining. When I was a kid my mum used to always say that the different colours of the kids that used to knock on my door and ask me to play could fill a rainbow. I've never understood the reason why the sight of a black man angers them. I don't think I'll ever understand but one thing that I will never do is stop uploading or give up on my career because of a ignorant fool.

To anyone who has faced racism in your life, whatever race you are, don't take the stupid opinions of others as fact. Don't be bitter it will only rot you from the inside out. Rise above and get those racists really angry and succeed!

Thank you to everyone who watched my video and subscribed check out the video that got the haters pissed.

It's been 2 years since I've been able to film, the reason why I said able is because I felt like I was literally frozen and unable to create. I felt like I wasn't ready to put myself in front of a camera, I was overweight and running out of confidence faster than I could go through a pack of doughnuts.

Whenever I mentioned to anyone why I wasn't filming I would say it was because I didn't have the equipment (which was only partly true, I had more than enough to film but didn't have everything such as lights, tripod etc). Another excuse I used was I didn't have enough time as I found a job. I was full of crap the real reason why I wasn't filming was because I didn't feel comfortable in front of the camera. I felt like I was too big to film and I had to get my body right before I got back on my job. In the past 2 years, I have felt like there was something missing in my life I knew that my goal in life was to create and I wasn't doing it. I felt that there was something missing in my life and after a year of working out and sorting out my life Click here to read my 2016 story I broke through and filmed.

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Whatever your dream is to pursue it or you will live your life in regret, take your chance today and do something towards your goal

Love from London

Finally made a new video after a 2-year hiatus. Check out my funny take on how to survive in the hood. Please give the video a big thumbs up the video and comment and let me know your thoughts.

In 5 days ( January 15th) most people would have given up on their new years resolutions. I think the reason why most people give up on their fitness goals half way into January is because they take extreme measures to reach their fitness goals too soon. Such as juice diets, pinch your nose while you eat diet, baby food diet. I heard people saying they're cutting out ALL sugar including natural sugars that come from fruits such as bananas and grapes, going to the gym every single day, and turning off their central because apparently you burn more calories when you're cold wtf. If you want to ease your way into the new year and achieve your goals follow these easy steps to a new you.

1. If it's better than McDonalds then you're winning

That was my motto last year, I was eating McDonalds almost everyday at lunch at one point. If my lunch was slightly healthier then I knew I was consuming less calories than I was previously which led to weight loss.

2. Drink less sugary drinks

If you've been drinking coke or fanta with no ice for the past month chances are your sugar cravings won't have died down just because the clock struck 12. Rather than have a sugary drink with every meal, drink a fun sized coke (150ml can) rather than finish the majority of a 1.5L bottle a day.

3. Drink more water

There are many different reports on how much water you should be drinking from 5 glasses to a gallon a day! An easy way to get more water in is have a bottle on your desk and just sip the water throughout the day. Maybe when you're 3 months into your new healthy lifestyle you can think about drinking an entire gallon of water a day.

4. Enter the gym don't worry about the rest

Don't worry about finding the perfect plan for your body type or buying a new pair of trainers just go as you are. Surprisingly most people in the gym do not give a crap about what you're wearing, just get in there. If you've been sitting on the sofa for the past year going to the gym 7 days a week will definitely burn you out. Start off with going 3-4 times a week and also don't worry about the intensity or how long you stay in the gym for. When I first starting going to the gym I was only doing 20-30 minute sessions. Sometimes with a hangover I stayed in the gym for 10 mins and left. Just remember the fact that you've entered the gym is an accomplishment and every session no matter how short is one step closer to your progress.

5. Forgive yourself

If you slip up (which you will) and have a donut or miss a day in the gym don't worry or stress yourself out, just get back on it the next day and remember you only fail if you give up.

What I listened to while a wrote this The Game - Baby You ft. Jason Derulo

This year has been one of the hardest years of my life and I have learn't many things along the way.

How strong I am

This year I broke out of a long term relationship, lost my job and my house. Having just one of those life changing moments happen to somebody could be fatal. Imagine being hit by all 3, how would you feel? Strong? Empowered? Ready to take on the world? Or how I actually felt which was shit. I felt like life hit me in the face with a baseball bat wrapped in barbed wire. I didn't take all that bad news very well, I shed a gangsta tear - for those who don't know a gangsta tear is literally one tear from your heartbroken eyeballs, FYI I chose to shed my one gangsta tear from my left side. I drank with the excuse that it's December, I smoked, I went on many long walks to take the pain away. Some days I just stayed in bed and watched Goldbergs. But one thing I didn't do was let the despair and feelings of failure define who I am. I done by best to stay positive and constantly spoke about progression. Repeating to anyone who asked "I'm good, I will get over this, I will do well, I will succeed" and truly believing in what I was saying had a very positive effect.

It's OK to be sad and do nothing... just not for too long

The saying time heals is very true but also slightly misleading, I was under the impression that after a couple duvet days that I would be OK. Ready to fight the world, look for a new job, focus on myself as a single man and just be the normal legend I'm used to being. As time went on I realised that I was border-lining between taking a few days off to sulk and being stuck in a self pitying rut. After watching endless inspirational videos on youtube and reading positive blog posts I finally dragged myself out of my duvet picked up my laptop and done what I love, being creative. Time does not heal, it's what you do in that time that will.

How important friends are

After two nights of partying, feeling like I'm back on top of the world and ready to stop being a bitch I happily jump off the train to be greeted by my friend who was no where near as jovial as I was. As I got ready to tell him that I'm done with moaning and I'm ready to get back on my job. My friend decides that was the perfect time to get the baseball bat out and slash me with the barbed wire all over again. Long story short he told me to fix the F up. He told me, "People are waiting on my ideas and concepts that I promised" (for a secret brand that will be coming 2017) "I've now been unemployed for a couple weeks and I've done nothing about it". Before I could open my mouth to say that's true but I'm ready to get back on it he went on about the plans we had made for 2017 and how was I going to achieve them if I wasn't doing anything. I was hurt I was like F this guy let's cut this meet up short. The next day he apologised but to be honest he shouldn't have, he told exactly what I needed to hear I just wasn't ready to hear it. I now realise that by having a friend that can tell you about your flaws no holds barred but does it from a good place because he / she wants you to do well is the kinda friend everyone needs. Also having a friend to party and forget your problems with is also just as important. I am grateful for all the friends I have and will make sure to do my best to keep in contact with positive, like minded, creative people in 2017.

You get exactly what you ask for

This time last year I had been in my most recent job for a couple months, it was my dream job working in a young fashion business, great vibe, working with interesting people, 10 walk from my house, I couldn't ask for more. Before I job the job I said to myself daily I want a job with all these attributes and that job will help fuel my blogging/youtube because I will have the money for equipment and the necessary new fashion connections I thought I needed. But it didn't work out that way, I was way too enthralled in the role, keeping my job and making a good impression that I ended up doing too many late nights, leaving myself zero brainwaves for anything else. As time went on I grew to really love my job but felt myself falling further and further away from my goals. There were a lot of new staff and the vibe changed, the friends I made started leaving, I had a new manager, my role changed and my love for the role diminished. I said to anyone who would listen, "it's time for me to move on I need a new job I want to pursue my dreams, life is not about a pay check and pursuing what other people deem as a successful life" (car, house etc). Guess what? I got what I asked for.

I was unhappy in the relationship I was in I said to myself, "I have to get out" over and over again. God gave me so many signs that it was time to leave. Although it was painful and took a while to get over, guess what? I got what I asked for.

In 2017 I'm asking for positivity, happiness, financial freedom and to turn my passions into my job and guess what I'm gonna get what I asked for :)

Consistency is key

With all the up and downs I've had over the year there was one thing that I did consistently and that was the gym. It's the first time I've done anything consistently for that long. For years I've said to myself "If I can only stick to this for a year imagine where I would be" and now after one year of consistent working out I can see the results I have lost 2 stone (17KG) feel so much better about myself and look a lot better. I know that if I put the same principles of being consistent in other areas of my life I will succeed no if, buts or maybes consistency is the most important key to success. I will show you how consistency can bring success by posting regularly for the whole of 2017!

What have you learn't from 2016? Leave a comment below

What I listened to when I wrote this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fJW0shJeFQU

The answer is a definate no! Although the weather has been beautiful over the weekend we were kindly reminded yesterday that in England you wear your shorts and t shirts when you can even if it is for five minutes.

So in order to keep your swag game up and your dignity intact (don't get caught slipping in the rain with your shorts) I've come up with the perfect spring outfit. To all my readers who are in constant sun F U!

I was planning on hand picking an outfit myself and I'll put the links below but damn you nike you just got it right with this one. When I think of the great and wonderful things I could do with this outfit; Walk around like a true legde. Cross my legs on the train so people can see logo underneath my lab air forces or have a marvelous outfit to wait in a alley and rob someone with, the options are endless. One good thing about doing a robbery in this outfit is when the poor soul who has just been stripped of their dignity and belonging goes to the police and ID's you, they will describe you as male (insert height and build) with a sick fucking jacket.